Note 7 march 2011

Sometimes i look in the mirror and wonder what my destiny is? I always have these dreams that my end is coming soon i cant explain it, so i decided to write down this..

Dreams i had, Dreams i lived but none them i survived in what is this shit?
Maybe a sign maybe a gift maybe just a fucking imagination what is this shit?
Why me? I still have a long way to be, Why cant i escape these dreams?
Or is it a sign? Or is it just me?
The Time is ticking, and i am already down on my knees.
Just take my last breath stop playing games with me,
iam tired of waiting to be exuted by death!
If i face you once, person to person i laugh at you and call you insane!
If you ask me why? Then let me explain, I look at you and laugh, i say "Death? you wish you never came and took my soul and played all these fucking games, because now iam face to face to the thing that fucked me up and played all these games, i will take your head apart and fucking stomp on your brain until the blood squirts all over the place, Now Death its time to play the game the way i want it to play.

Feb 21 2011

Hello blog, it has been a while sense i wrote here but i thought its time to do so lately so much happened i didn't feel like writing at all not because i was lazy because most the time i was either to upset or to busy with sl or rl..Ive been ejected out of my family because i made a mistake i regret i flirted with my ex aunt out of my old family which was pretty wrong in my Opinion NOW.. Ive pretty much cheated on my girl friend by doing that...which i will never do again she doesn't deserve to be cheated on this woman gives a man anything he wants i dont have it she will get it for me if she can, Shes a great girlfriend,Friend,Sub,Slave,Wife,Mother,BFF :P, and just perfect at anything especially Poetry http://unknown-phenomenon.blogspot.com/ thats her blog but she stole my name tho which pissed me off quiet abit sense she didn't ask but oh well...anyways back to where i was at with the family i regret doing the mistake i wish things wouldn't of happened how they did but after ive done my mistake and truly apologized nobody was willing to step forward and take me back in the family.. they moved on with there life's like i never existed... one of them even said "one time is a mistake twice isn't" well if so why didn't you guys give me another chance like every human deserves to proof that i did a huge mistake and wouldn't ever do it again. I enjoyed the time being in the family having a mother which i never forget.
Trina gave me another chance...iam happy she did forgive me i didn't mean to make us look bad especially her looking like a idiot for being with a pervert that tried hooking up with his aunt >.>" i am happy she really loves me other girls would of chosen to leave probably but Trina is special i know it <3

Now that we started looking for a land/parcel while that happened we heard that Nicki our sl daughter had an bad accident in rl which made things even more sad and unfair i couldn't enjoy times with my daughter because a drunk dick decided to drive a fucking car while being drunk...i even missed my OWN rezzday 16 Feb close enough as far as i remember...with my first account i really was planning on making a party for that event but sadly things never go out well on either birthdays or Events i plan like fuck me seriously i have birthday this year on the 13 of Friday like what the fuck? Iam probably gonna end up sitting in my room dont move just sit on the computer before anything happens (probably computer gonna get a virus that day or something)...but anyways we found a parcel we renting around 6k a week i believe for 1500 prims which is pretty good and we were planning on Surprising Nicki with some siblings but that isn't going to well either we are on trial with a kid that i like and would love to have as my daughter too but she is kinda saying she really doesn't want to be a part of the family or isn't sure yet i mean either it clicks and you want to be a part of the family or you wont..anyways now iam hoping Nicki comes back soon and nothing will go wrong i miss her alot its hard not having her around sense she was so much fun...Iam suppose to be in bed but i couldn't sleep i felt like writing again in my blog now after iam not so upset anymore...i made a couple things and put them on the marketplace no biggie but its at least a start!


Love you all <3

3 Feb 2011 Vacation

5:27PM Finally its time for some relaxing time i logged on and build a nice beach on our land and decorated it and relaxed with my lovely wife!

[15:23] ღ's ԌrɑsSɦOpρėℜ: i could stay with you in this sweet surrender. stay lost in this moment forever. every monet spent with you is a moment i treasure. forever

[15:23] ღ's ԌrɑsSɦOpρėℜ: ❤

Us ❤

Nicki hasn't logged on for a while iam a bit worried :|. Hopefully she will be back soon i really miss her :((

6:09 PM me and Trina are done dressing up we decided to go explore secondlife

for a little bit after crashing three times and my avatar getting messed up i fin

ally can move and teleported to http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Rua/165/206/10 it was so beautiful i loved it down here and i had my cheats on with UNLIMITED BREATH! Can you believe that?

its so pretty down here alot of people come here too and those exotic fish's!

Trina was hiding too in the far back i didn't see her! LOL after i took this picture!

me and Trina were sitting there all the sudden we meet some mermaids lmfao weirdos !

Its 6:29 PM Trina harassing the damn turtles!

She keeps on repeating i like turtles and does this!

[16:30] Toker: beastiality

[16:30] Toker: damn

[16:31] Trina Karsin: have you ever been to kalipsyia or whatever

eeww where.

✖ FAILED ! ✖ ((BLONDE MOMENT!)) >.>

Now trina teleported me to this place i dont know of lol.

We get to the sim first thing she says is

[16:33] Trina Karsin: pick an entrance

[16:34] Toker: ure pussy!

she ment the doors LOL *sad face*

And omgah if ure ever baked go to this sim i swear to god you will trip out! haha in mouselook!!

Then this weird ass place with uhm this hole haha

And now we fell trough and all i can see are 4 new doors and a corn field o.O

now we went trough one of the doors and came to another outta space place and we found some poses up on a rock i love this place i love places like that art its all art and its fun to explore!

There is a weird bird under us it was a beautiful one tho!

we just left this last room and went trough a tunnel with fire

and now we are in outta space again with ice around us then we went on poses again and kissed :P rawr :)

Yummy Love you babes <3

we went to another one that was full of suns and a Yellow bird then we got shot at by stupid astroids!

I love space its just so fucking awesome wish i could ever see how the earth looks like from out of space my self not form videos or Games or pictures!

I dont know what this next picture is of but i took a shot of it because it looked awesome lol!

Big red ball of energy probably :)

We found the chill place where you can do Yoga!

I love this place its really relaxing to be honest :)

[16:55] Toker: We going to die!

[16:55] Toker: :O

[16:55] ღ's ԌrɑsSɦOpρėℜ: ::::HAHaHaHA Im In Hea Goin Hamn Man:::

[16:55] ღ's ԌrɑsSɦOpρėℜ: what that was random

[16:56] Toker: NO its not we going out of air :P *Gasping for air*

[16:56] ღ's ԌrɑsSɦOpρėℜ: omfg!!!

[16:56] ღ's ԌrɑsSɦOpρėℜ: im CPR certified ill save you with mouth to penis

[16:56] ღ's ԌrɑsSɦOpρėℜ: i mean mouth to mouth

[16:56] Toker: okay you ruined the roleplay! Thanks! trina!

[16:56] Toker: lol

7:19 PM we left the sim and went to a different sim/http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Serenity%20Point%20Harbor/217/192/30

[17:15] Teleport offer sent to ღ's ԌrɑsSɦOpρėℜ

[17:17] Toker: babe i love me

[17:17] Trina Karsin: i also love you

[17:17] Trina Karsin: what a cowinky dink

[17:18] Toker: huh

[17:19] Trina Karsin: you said you love yourself

[17:19] Trina Karsin: i said i love you too

[17:19] Toker: omg

[17:19] Toker: wtf

[17:19] Toker: i really said that

[17:19] Toker: mega fail

[17:19] Trina Karsin: yea u did

[7:22] Toker: babe slow down damn speed limit is 15 what mcdonnalds has half off or what?

its 7:45 and me and trina just got done helping two newbs giving them advice and some skin,hair,shapes,

7:51 PM we went to a crime scene and i felt like walking around but lost interest..so i left again!

And went back home..

I finally set up earlier the beach i love it here is a pic of what it looks like

me and ma babby cuddling

Chilling with Momi and sisy <3>

Wondering where to go shop too i cant decide....

cant find anything to do its boring baahh...

went back upstairs to continue building me and mom had a conversation all the sudden a part of this conversation is removed and i thought i was in a time loop or something it felt like we never had that convo till i asked her to copy and paste the last thing i said in the past 5min

Done for today :)

9:47PM!

30 Jan 2011 Defeat

Today i logged on and checked on the votes so i can vote for nicki on my alts but then when i look closely i couldn't believe someone caught up to 330 votes and won the contest in a couple of hours thats insane well nicki placed second on it iam upset tho she didn't get to be first place sense we worked so hard.

its 11:03AM and nicki logged on again after crashing i wanna surprise her and teach her how to build one day.

its 2:22PM i decided to lay down in rl for abit around 12pm now i came back online not that tired anymore :)

3:22 PM me and nana tried to set up a security orb so people cant

just walk on our property without permission sadly that didn't work because the orb was not owned by me i couldn't access the settings

4:57 PM me and trina got a new pet Nyon :) new sub yay

7:12 PM it turned out that the sub was really disrespect full and has been kicked she disrespected my wife and thats not okay.

The Customized Tattoos finally got delivered.

10:31 PM just got done building the fence me and my aunt ana get along now which make me really happy

10:45 Relaxing with my baby in the bathtub after this stressful day i am abit bit upset about what happened today (RIP Andrew) we will miss you <3.

I love trina alot she is what i always needed!

Yes i horribly failed and went into the bathtub with my chucks on!

29th Jan 2011 How i hate my viewer!

Hello Peeps, i haven't been online or felt like writing sense i was sick in rl!

Well its 9:10 AM right now i logged on to vote for my daughter i got her up to 193
with Trina now we are here trying to get as many voters as possible iam kinda happy my kid is winning but iam tired of voting too! Its so laggi here to not to mention trying to open chats and ask for support that crap doesn't even work here

10:45 running around looking for a fight in Bloodline wars :)
i went to embraced base and found someone haha [08:48] HUD :: Bloodlines War 1.8: You killed Kodexx Dionysus!

11:08 i stoped fighting because i got bored and went back to the voting panel for nicki well i noticed second place has caught up and Teleported a ton of people in.

11:24 i left the sim where the voting contest is because it upset me that people are beating us i guess but ohwell =).

11:36 Joined the Tiny empire family pretty nice people

have been fighting for a while in bloodline wars nothing important now iam here getting people together for Nicki :P to vote!!
Thanks alot people i love you all!

3:57 PM Me and trina getting ready for darlas party! wootz! :D

8:35 at the party Mom and nana are working at and playing black ops in the same time hopeing i win the contest who has the best looking tail!

War is catching up with me people want to know if i can lead there army iam not sure if i can ugh i was RETIRED but i guess there not many War Veterans out there anymore...just hope my guts will do it right.

9:16 still danceing here with mom and nana! Rocking the bootys :P

26th Jan 2011 When wishes come true!

Today iam writing a summary of the day...When i logged in i was right away gonna look for a house with Trina so we did and eventually found a nice house that is BIG enough for all of us haha!

And so we met up with my bro for abit chilled and talked with the Queen and the Queen asked me to build her a Skybox so i agreed and helped out and didn't finished tho not done yet :)

I am really sorry but iam tired and dont feel like writing alot

all i can say a wish came true of a happy family for me<3

Sorry people!

Hope i didn't

ruin you're night by reading pretty much nothing!

LOL.

Toker Resident

25th Jan 2011 Sky High

5:45PM

I logged on...and no Trina T.T but she logged on right after me and greeted me then.

Nana bought a sim and lets us rent a place we hoping for more prims tho and would try to pay it off

i missed my family :) and happy to be with them right now..

Its 11:29 PM and i was high all day in rl and didn't feel like writing while playing so i thought before i got to bed ill make a summary of today.

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After me and Trina left my Wonderful Grandmas new Sim we went to a RLV store RLV means Restrained Life Viewer (http://www.erestraint.com/realrestraint/) anyways sense iam own the Owner HUD i can capture SLAVES or Submission pets while on sim's where i can rezz objects like a cage that will capture them we did that to 3-4 people and had our fun :)...after that we went to Nicki's contest board to vote for it..i sat there for 4 hours looking for people to vote it was a pain in the ass eventually..i messaged the store owner and asked her why is it called a Photo Contest if the one that has the most votes has a noobish picture set up and just Mass Teleports people in to vote for her? She Agreed and said if my daughter Nicki gets near 1,2,3 place she still Probably get the same amount price money then the first place did!! Thats Great to be honest! I am disappointed not many people showed up even tho i was trying for hours just se

nding Teleports out to random people asking them to support my child i had a huge headache for Hours sense i got Sky High! OR more Baked to be honest to the point i was hallucinating its quiet funny what happened today! Me and Grandma agreed for a part of the Land for 700 prims for 1200L each week its a fair price cant complain gotta love the family honestly :P I REALLY DO! I wouldn't trade my spot for millions of linden with anyone! So me and Nana=Grandmas nickname we were looking at houses and it was really hard to decide which house to get i liked most of them..and wanted to wait for my family to make the choice tho sense iam not going to be the only one living in it! Past few days i was worried about my other child too about Molly i have seen her log on her alt allot its a kid Avie too and i am worried she has a second family...i really love both of my Child's wouldn't trade them for anything in the world!